nancy's definitions of hell:
hell is not knowing what morgue your child is laying in.
hell is being told by the medical examiner it's too late, the autopsy was done yesterday.
hell is reading that autopsy and recognizing your child just from the descriptions it contains.
hell is knowing the weight of your child's brain.
hell is a container of cremated remains with your child's name on the paper attached to it.
hell is a toe tag in that container that has obviously gone through intense heat.
hell is walking into a room of co-workers and their conversations cease.
hell is feeling badly about sharing any of this due to it making someone uncomfortable.
hell is being asked what is the matter with me.
hell is waking up remembering.
hell is remembering as you fall asleep.